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Grape Juice, Wine, and Holy Communion

2012-01-21T02:19:00.000-08:00

Taken from a website:

Q: Some congregations use grape juice for Communion, using Proverbs 23:31 to defend the practice: “Do not look at wine when it is red, when it sparkles in the cup and goes down smoothly.” Their argument continues, “The word when is a time reference, meaning that there is a time when the wine is not red, but purple, as in grape juice. The word wine can then be denoted as wine that is not red; i.e. grape juice. If that is the case, we can then use grape juice for the Sacrament of the Altar, since the element is to be wine which can be either wine or grape juice.” Can you please address this argument?

A: While their argument could be made from this passage alone, let’s see how the word translated “when” means much more in Hebrew. Translators may render it as “for” or “because,” as in, “Give thanks to the Lord for he is good, forhis steadfast love endures forever. (Psalm 106:1, et al.)” Other translations include “if”, “in case,” “even when,” “even though,” “as,” “which is,” “who is,” and the like. Even the use of “when” isn’t strictly temporal. In English, we may use it to indicate a general state of being, independent of time.

Secondly, nothing in Scripture (or science) indicates a lack of alcohol in either red or purple wines. Except among prohibitionists, theologians generally agree that whatever the exact color, “wine,” “new wine,” “old wine,” “mixed wine,” and “fruit of the vine” all refer to the end product of grape fermentation; that is, wine. Differing types may have varied in strength but all contained alcohol.

If we examine the surrounding verses, from 29 through 35we read an entire section indicting drunkenness and the intentional abuse of alcohol. The rhetorical questions in verse 29 beg the answers that follow. What causes all these problems? Not wine, but too much wine, taken too often. The final lines obviously aren’t spoken by a responsible social or religious consumer — they sound exactly like alcohol and drug addicts of our current age: “When shall I awake? I must have another drink.” Only “real” wine taken too frequently or at too great a volume will leave one drunk and then hung over.

I would say the intent of the verse is, “Don’t gaze longingly over cup of sparkling red wine, lest it gently seduce and then harshly ensnare you.” And if wine seduces and ensnares anyone drinking of the cup of the blood of Jesus Christ, he has problems beyond any interpretation of this verse.

Tale of a Prodigal Mom

2011-09-13T08:29:00.000-07:00

Well, not really, it’s based true story.

Could you imagine a mother leaving her children at home to go and gossips with some other people?Or would a mother leave her children outsider her own house because she wanted to sleep inside the house?!

Oh yes, unfortunately it’s my neighbor. It’s really sad to see this situation happening in our society these days.

Come on, leaving your children in the house alone is never a good suggestion. How could she ever think of doing that? What would happen if the child go and turn on the cooking gas in the kitchen? Or go to the washroom and fall on their head?

Another one, leaving her children outside of the house, while the boy crying his lungs out for the mother, that is in the house.

I really feel like slapping the mother, being a nuisance as the walkway is right beside my room

(I can hear the buy crying outside most of the days), and crying for more than half an hour. Well I don’t think it’s that long, but it surely feels like it.

I am reminded of this bible verse as I look at this situation:

n“Can a woman forget her nursing child,

that she should have no compassion on the son of her womb?

Even these may forget,

yet I will not forget you.

Isaiah 49:15

Wow, what an assurance! God in His all powerfulness, this verse explain to us that this relationship between a woman and her offspring is the closest relationship you can ever find on earth. (Closest in nature that we can find).

Even these may forget! (means such a thing might occur) Saying even a mother forgets her child (of all her labour pain in bringing this child to the world), God does not forget us! Even when we think He is not listening to our pain.

I’m truly amazed at what had taken place in history to set me free. I’ll always be thankful, that He took all my wrongdoings, pain, and shame upon himself to save me…

P/S: The neighbor of mine, still annoys my family. And she place the rubbish outside in the walkway EXPECTING someone to pick it up and throw for her. Wah, lebih ni! But hopefully we would show the love of Jesus to our neighbor so they can come to know the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ.

Going to end with this:

The Great Commandment

34 bBut when the Pharisees heard that he had silenced cthe Sadducees, they gathered together. 35 dAnd one of them, ea lawyer, asked him a question fto test him. 36 “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?” 37 And he said to him, g“You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. 38 This is the great and first commandment. 39 And ha second is like it: iYou shall love your neighbor as yourself. 40 jOn these two commandments depend kall the Law and the Prophets.”

Matthew 22

Buddha spoke about Jesus??

2011-06-15T02:43:00.000-07:00

Buddha Spoke of Jesus
500 years before Jesus was born

In the Buddhist Scriptures, there is a prophecy from about 500 B.C. (Before Christ) of the "Holy One" who would come. One who would lead the people away from the old way, and introduce a new way.

Buddha described the "Holy One" by saying;

"in the palm of his hands and in the flat of his feet will be the design of a disk, in his side will be a stab wound; and his forehead will have many marks like scars...." This describes the risen Jesus, after being crucified for our sins, exactly!

Permission was granted to copy these Buddhist Scriptures regarding the prophecy of the Holy One (Jesus) from Wat Phra Sing in Chiang Mai Province. The person who gave permission was Phra Sriwisutthiwong in Bangkok. It is guaranteed that this copy is accurate according to the original, that there is no error in transmission, which is in the book of the district headman, the religious encyclopedia, volume 23, book #29. This inquiry was made on October 13, 1954 A.D. (Buddhist era 2497). Phra Sriwisutthiwong is the Deputy Abbot and Director of Wat Pho Museum, Wat Pho Temple, Thailand.

I didn't say i was right, but do research on yourself.
Read more about it here.

http://www.bibleprobe.com/buddhatoldofjesus2.htm

Totally amazed...

Grow up you!!

2011-06-09T22:40:00.000-07:00

You, yes you!! If you are wondering if i ever was annoyed at people, yes today I really was.

It all happen in my work place today. Credit card machine was giving problem, it's been days since a problem happen with it. Well, being not a pro at it, I called the service provider. Make sense right??

First of all, they were asking what race am I?? is that even related to what I'm asking them to resolve?? Would it be if I'm a chinese/malay/indian would make it solve faster?? Maybe it's my "Raj" name sound so indian that they decide to slow things down, i don't know. After being on the phone for 10 freaking minutes of passing here and there between operators and technicians, someone said it would be solve by today. That was 2 days ago.

One day passed, no news. Not even their smell (not to say they are smelly).

Second day, called back again. Same problem, keep passing me around and empty promises, never came again.

Today, i called them TWICE!! First time, they said they would settle it by today, by 4pm nothing happen, so by using my senses i called them again.

I seriously almost scream at them after these few days.

When they started to pick up, who in the world would say "Hello, who is this??" when it's a general number to call in??

Ok didn't want to argue about it, this girl who picked up the call was joking around with another guy on the other line (he was behind her in the company- it sounded like that).

Well, i think she knew me by name, and obvious enough that I told them before this that I'm not a chinese nor a indian the previous day, she was bitching about me to her other colleague!!! How dare she?? It's audible over the phone. Well, she was bitching in tamil and she thinks i don't understand. Fine again!! Because i just wanted to get this problem done.

Finally, they decided to come again tomorrow morning to settle this. I really hope they do as I have customer who will be using their credit card to swipe a RM 30,000 deal. If i don't close that, I'll be furious!! Finally, before i put down the phone- I just told the lady, if by tomorrow morning they still delay their service, we will cancel their contract immediately. Talking about being a boss :P

Just seconds before hanging up, i told the lady that i can understand tamil and i think she was so embarrass and she keep repeating that she is sorry, but i hang up.

I think i did the right thing by hanging up.

Talking about bad service. Although i am a very patient person, still there is a limit at things.

After this incident, i might have prejudices against INDIANS (and yes, she was an indian so is the other colleagues), sorry my indian friends. Your kind had really spoil my trust for you people. I need time to recover from this, but I'm cool with the people that i know.

Haiz...

...Life tough questions...

Some people just don't get it

2011-06-06T00:45:00.000-07:00

Here is a story of the special someone who annoys me...

One fine day...
She comes to my house as i was about to go to work...
Ask me to send her to bus stop, which is fine with me...
Ask me to wait for her as i was late for work...
Comes in to my car, saying why my car is so hot...
Ask me to switch on the air-cond of my car, which i don't really switch it on in the morning...
Call someone, and ask me to send here to a place where it's not on my way there, not even close...
Drop her at the bus stop and i went to work...

P/S: it's not my mom or sisters. Just people...

Life taughest questions, hmm...

Just a pen

2011-05-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

Days and years had gone by, direction have change, people come and go, life moved on...

I remembered 5 years ago, still a fresh graduate just after SPM, i actually took a year off to actually figure out what i wanted my life to be (at that time) as well as earning money to pay for my own college fees. Offer came, door was opened for me to actually be a teacher (yes, i was teaching at some point of my life).

I thought what's the worse that could happen right?? But the truth is it was never easy, plus dealing with kids is another issue that i think parents nowadays just give up at their own children. I would say it was a noble thing to do, and how much has it been with the pressure that small kids goes through every single day of their life, just to perform to be the best of everywhere they are. So much for being in a competitive world now.

I remembered an incident, where my student (was not the best student in term of spelling and writing) actually make me realize something- they are trying their very best to learn from me.

What struck me the most was a student bought me a pen for teachers day!

I was like, nah! I'm not a teacher anyway! Go and give to some other teacher. But the student insisted to give it to me. Knowing me, i don't simply take things from people, including food.

For once in my life, I felt appreciated being a teacher (not a good teacher anyway), but this lesson I remember it all my life so i can be thankful, and indirectly show me to the Cross.

I know being a naughty kid, i surely had trouble my parents, primary school teachers, kindergarten teacher, including my tuition teachers one hell of a problem! But it was through their dedication, passion and ROTAN that pushes me to be who I am today (not anyone yet anyway). I got to say it was their dedication to their job, which they take it passionately!

So I am wishing all my teachers, directly or indirectly who came across my life, in any way possible wishing all of you a great teachers day and appreciate your dedication to your job! Without all of you, i would have been nothing useful now.

P/S to Xin: My english is bad not because of my teacher, i was just lazy to learn when i was young...

P/S 2: I still have the pen with me...

Respect!!

Showers of Blessings!! Where's mine??

2011-05-04T07:36:00.000-07:00

As most of you will know by now, I'm actually in the Hi-Fi industry or the world of Hi-Fi= High Fidelity. There are much to learn and much to know about in this industry I'm in. We always have things that's new time and time again, so constantly I would have to update myself on the in-trend things in the industry.

I'm focusing so much with a lot of projects currently, as the plan is to install the sound system into the living room, and even in the walls.

My question is- Where do these rich people get their money and spend it in nonsensical way??

Why can't i get as much money as they can??

Must must say, this people really thinks the SKY is the limit to build their dream house. So for now, I will help them in getting what they want. For a good home theatre system.

Hmm...

Droolz...

Weird feeling

2011-05-04T00:42:00.000-07:00

I just feel confused, feel like hiding where no one knows

and just cry...

Transition

2011-04-30T08:28:00.000-07:00

I was here not long ago...

(more than 20,000 sq. feet per floor, 6 story building)

to a 2 story building in Singapore...

not!! That's my parent company in Singapore, will be going there soon I hope.

I'm on the Malaysia side of the company, which is in Jaya One, PJ.

(showroom less than 1000 sq. feet)

Life had been good with my new working place. Less area to run up and down, less thing to be in charge of, lesser people to deal with. Basically a new life, a simple one i choose to move on.

Yes, it's a different industry altogether. Till now, I've been enjoying this new life of mine. I always believe in starting small, and move unto bigger things in life.

till next time....

Risen King

2011-04-24T07:13:00.000-07:00

I wonder sometimes, why people have to be so nice to me when i don't deserve it. And all these incident in my life shows me to His cross, the cross that is a significant to the christian worldwide. (or for those who believe)

I think I have mention here before that I'm an emotional guy, i have problem with singing aloud with other people. I mean, singing in a big setting such as concert, conference. Even when i'm not singing, i sometime terasa the lyrics of it. Maybe that is why i don't sing when I'm in the midst of these settings. But it's always make me feel worse...

What am i writing here?? I seriously have to clue. But i know that 2000 years ago, i was redeemed by this awesome person, who took all my sins and pain and everything that comes with it, even condemnation. He had come to give me life and life more abundantly. What more can be better than that??!

Time and time again, I'm reminded of this song of what He has done, for us to believe the work that was done once and for all.

Freely You gave it all for us
Surrendered Your life upon that cross
Great is your love
Poured out for all
This is our God

Lifted on high from death to life
Forever our God is glorified
Sovereign king
Rescued the world
This is our God

Taken from the song - This is Our God

really am speechless!!

Time never will change

2011-04-16T06:18:00.001-07:00

I miss the time i had when i was not working!!

Plus get to earn money on top of that.

I miss those time i get to go for holidays, means i miss my younger days.

Also means I'm old now :(

You're bigger than my imagination...

Overwhelmed

2011-04-01T15:17:00.000-07:00

Well, this is where it will be first to say it out that "I got a new job now!"

Started the morning with a really bad feeling of being jobless for the month or so. I broke down and cry looking ahead of my future, like a blind man trying to see the road ahead.

But i think God had to break my pride, so He can create something in myself. Unless we know we are weak and need to rely on Him, I'm putting a picture of a clay being totally controlled by the hands of the potter. Without the potter, what are we right?? Other than a useless bunch of clay which doesn't do any good, initially...

Well, this offer is something i didn't play a part in. Gave my best and out of all those who were shortlisted, it was me. How did it all happen is still a mystery to me, but all glory to Him. I know it was not a moment was by chance!

Well, i said before right, that something good is happening the end of this week??

I think i now know what it really meant.

Life's good cause He is awesome!

We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials,

for we know that they help us develop endurance.

Romans 5:3 (New Living Translation)

A new beginning

2011-03-29T18:25:00.000-07:00

Many of you might have guess it right that I'm currently bumming being at home. You might be right 50% and wrong 50% the rest. If you think i was just staying at home sleeping the most (as some of you might think), you are totally wrong! I mean, i was mostly doing a lot of thinking beside actively looking for a new job that i can grow in.

Well, to get it started, it took me quite a while thinking what have I being doing for the past 2 years working with my ex-company?? Thoughts like "i could have done more" or "i shouldn't leave the company" was playing in my mind over and over again. To the point where i start to think whether it was a mistake to leave having to believe my future is in His hands. Not to say to test God to provide a new job for me, but it was letting Him to lead my life again.

Yes, i do admit a lot of things for the past 2 years was a blessing from Him but i realize that I took most of the credit for achieving what i wanted and pride was my issue, although some might find it hard to believe. I really struggle with all of these things slowly creeping into my life like poison! To the point where i felt good when I'm in control, injecting this poison into my own mind time and time again was making me feel good (i imagine it that way).

Until that someone show up in my life and started to make me think of all the plans for me to destroy myself.

Starting of the 2011 moment, when i was in church, I felt the decision to actually leave the job i love a lot for some reason. But at that time, it was not like i know when I'm leaving or to where i am going to or to do what. But i keep having this feeling for weeks, and somehow i know it will come to pass as i always trust my own instinct. This is unexplainable factor of life till today, and that's why i can't explain about it here, but i know everyone has it.

Days and weeks has passed, month come by. And suddenly it became clearer that I needed to move on as i felt i was dragging on pushing myself to work everyday as it has become more of a burden for me to continue on. Knowing me being a patient guy, i really can't take it anymore to the fact where i can't really control my anger. I know i needed to stop it, so i took time to cool down before speaking to my management about it.

But situation became worse and getting more people involve. I choose to let it go and not hold grudges against anyone that i was angry with after speaking to my superior about it.

Finally i left, and here i am... still!! Looking out for another job actively.

My point is, I recall that i once said I'll be back to serve in church in future in 2009, but i did try to make a change in my work place when i was there. I love being a blessing to others as I've seen all sorts of people when i was away at work. Till the point of watching tears flowing from a few set of eyes. But i did learn a lot these time being exploring as a sailor sail to the outside world.

So by giving my blog a new look, I am pushing myself to a better career, more knowledge as it's a new beginning from where i last stop. The journey looks far ahead, and we can start by taking baby step to move ahead rather than not moving at all.

Much to share the next time...

Looking good, it's a belief...

Decision

2011-03-25T22:11:00.000-07:00

Out with the old, and In with the new!!

Life is good!!

Exciting journey coming soon...

The road not taken

2011-03-07T10:17:00.000-08:00

I am torn between:

Being a freelance drummer who will not earn so much, but having much time??

Get a full time job that pays me well, but take all my time away??

Something i'm finding hard to decide, God help me!!

One Ringgit

2011-03-06T23:11:00.000-08:00

Food for thought:

If Sin is worth RM1, than Salvation is worth RM 1 as well.

-Justin Kang-

Think about it

I am...

2011-03-06T22:21:00.000-08:00

i am not so smart!!!

Mistake after mistake, scolding after scolding. i have to start learning and open my mind to do better things. Come on Calebraj, get yourself in order first!!!

Aizat's concert mark my last in Bentley Music

2011-03-06T21:39:00.000-08:00

Had a great time handling Aizat Amdan's Live in Damansara concert. Being the venue organizer, it was a real challenge to actually make this event a success, from planning stage to the actual concept that was required, i was very much involve to check their status, their rehearsals, to the real concert itself.

Seeing Aizat really giving his best everytime during performance, i really envy his heart for his fans. As much as he is performing, i really wish i was in his shoes up on the stage, giving my best to my fans (if i can find as many as Aizat's). I was basically inspired seeing this concerts. He even has his own label for recording company, merchandising, and distribution. OMG, if only i got that much money to start with.

I'm really looking forward to write my own songs like i used to when i was in college days. As I'm on freelance mode currently, I'll get myself on track for a full time job by day, and being a song writer by night. Or better if i can get a passive income, that's more like it!

Oh yes, for all that is still wondering, I quit my job being the Marketing and PR Coordinator of Bentley Music for personal reason of can't agree with my superior. And mostly because my heart is not there to work anymore.

Well, a position i was eyeing to reach there in 5 years, i was privilege to hold it without any experience when i had the honor from my superior to fill in the position.

I think things happen for a reason, be it good or bad. That's my lesson to learn in life currently.

To conclude, life has more to give than being angry or sulking, which i would abide in Him for strength, wisdom, power and favor. I believe greater things are coming ahead for me, just waiting for the right time for God to show off!

Chinese New Year 2011

2011-02-05T07:39:00.000-08:00

Yes, having a long break for CNY holiday had just been great. Knowing that I can rest my mind for a few days, I'm not used to it.

This year had been a quiet but exciting Chinese New Year. Had been there for her Reunion dinner with a lot other family members really makes the atmosphere like it should be during CNY. And as it's Chinese people's biggest celebration, food was crazily could feed a whole village. But it has been a joyous occasion with much warmth and laughter.

I've getting closer to my Chinese roots, hopefully.

I'm glad i don't need to work during the holidays, it would suck if i do. Looking at people at the big malls having to work over the holidays does make me grateful of my holiday period. Although i'm complaining that I still have to work in other public holidays.

Bought some clothes and a laptop during my holiday.

Yes, laptop inflict some debt into me as i do need it so badly as my desktop at home is dying off.

Well, i could use my phone to connect to the internet, but some people won't be able to use it as the WIMAX connection sucks at certain location in the house.

Decide to get it, and as i'm paying it 100% myself, using my dad's credit card that is. Laptop will be based for home use with everyone using it.

Well, like the saying goes "Sharing is caring".

it had been a fun experience to me this particular year, will be looking forward for great events in the future with *ahem*...

till next time

micro blogging good

2011-02-01T07:20:00.000-08:00

I'm Blogging using my phone, this is so cool!!

Ups and Downs of 2010

2011-01-25T21:08:00.000-08:00

Looking back over the year 2010, I've learned to be a stronger person.

With a higher position in my current company, i was starting to carry more responsibility on my shoulder, knowing that it won't be an easy task. Juggling so many different things seam to be a normal day job to me. I had to learn to De-stress all the time by myself till i met Her.

She really did a lot to change my mindset. I've learned t be more reserved than before this, can't say the wrong thing anymore. She taught me to control my emotion, patients and go crazy at the same time.

Yes, I'm not single anymore (there, i say it the first time in my blog) but that doesn't mean i don't have time for my friends. I'm still the same old guy who like to hide at the back helping the person in the limelight looks and sounds nice. Not helping them make-up that is.

Like i said before, last year was a journey, same like this year as I'm moving forward in my life, knowing that my life is in His hands and He truly does love me! Previously i prefer to be emo but now, I'm changed to be more thankful and positive in thinking. Truly His mercy endures forever.

Btw, My car is back, and it looks brand new on the outside.

CNY coming, must get a lot of "Ang pau" to make myself rich (for the month that is).

Till next time...

Welcome 2011

2010-12-31T19:09:00.000-08:00

It's been a rough 2010 for me. Having to juggle between work, church and personal life is not an easy thing. But i took the decision to spend my last moment of 2010 in church (my working colleague ask me to join them for countdown but i decline), together with stepping into 2011. Saw the church plans for 2011 and felt inspired. I know I step into the right decision for now.

(nice backdrop, it was there since Christmas)

Where am I heading in 2011??
I seriously have no idea, really placing my trust on Jesus to guide me in every step taken. 365 days by faith. With all those "things to expect in 2011" being revealed even in newspaper, I'm still skeptical over certain things like the economy and money issue.
Big decision to be made in 2011, that for sure for me.

Well, I've not gotten my car yet. Still waiting and I'll be claiming all those money and keep it, after all, I've been troubled for the past 1 month right??

(youths dancing for a song)

Awesome day, I bet God is more awesome...

December Scare!!

2010-12-04T06:26:00.001-08:00

Had a great plan for an outing since i started working, so much so that i think nothing can spoil my day that day. Oh boy, I was so wrong. Didn't even see this coming along.

Well, this is the first of my big accident that i was involve in, luckily i was not the one to be blame. It's also the first time i was really cool about it when it happened.

Got sms by one person saying: "congratulation on your first accident!",

wow that sound encouraging isn't it?

To cut the story short, a road "runner" (literally, that's what they are called) came along and help us to tow the cars away (mine still has the ability to be driven around amazingly), spend the whole afternoon and evening in the police station...

OMG, police station!! I don't know what Hell was like until i reach there...

It was so packed because few days prior to this there was an offer for summons discount till 50% for road offenders for the duration of 2 weeks. The amount of people rushed to finish up paying for it, just don't imagine. Hence slowing my small little request of making a police report for my car's accident.

Waited from 1.30pm till 5pm for the chief in charge. During the wait, he took a 2 hours break, plus another hour saying "Saya tengah sibuk sekarang, sila keluar". Oh my, i was so tired i almost fainted literally (not had my lunch yet), but i prayed for it to get over with and soon after that, it's over!!

Took my car to EON PJ, left it there and go off.

Duration to get my car back in perfect condition: 1 freaking month!! what?? It'll be till new year, so i have to depend on others for their goodwill to and fro from work now.

The backside that i was hit by a Proton Gen 2.

My front part of my car that was damage, nothing big but I'm claiming for full restoration.

Was sick and took 2 MC days to join friends at church over the weekend, had my first and the last communion service in 2010. All had been good. It's been a journey of up and down, but God always remain faithful.

P/S: My old computer is wearing off soon, will try to resurrect it while I still can.
till next time...

November Rain

2010-12-01T16:30:00.000-08:00

Looking back at the month of November, it was really a roller coaster ride till it ended yesterday.

First of all, being at work with never ending task took a lot of my attention and time away: Customers to follow up, meeting to attend to, stock to check in warehouse, event to manage, sale to oversee, promotion to be planned out, stock to clear off, boxes to be clear out, chairs to be move around, renovation plan to be oversee being carried out and the list goes on and on...

I remembered losing my temper and scolded some other person because I was wanted in 5 different places at once! How could that happen you must say?? Well, now i know the feeling. I really admire someone for being able to juggle her time so perfectly that i can't really do the same. Not to mention her workload is even greater than mine, obviously because she is my superior in the company that is, but she really takes time to listen to every little small problem that other staff feels. I'm thinking to myself "wow, if only i could do that; did she lose her temper before??".

I'm not being as often in church as my work can be a last minute confirm occasion. Well, yes i do miss my ever crazy church-mate with all the bad thing we could talk to each other but this bunch of people really get serious with what they do, even at work/studies. While I'm thinking what am I doing??

But i thank God that i have these people to make my day, including my college-mate and that special little someone that is with me. Never would i thought that this year going to end so quickly as it should, but the journey had been a fun ride.

One more month to go in this roller coaster ride, hopefully by January things will settle down for me to a more stable condition...

till next time

(this picture makes me laugh every-time)

October 2010, the craziest month ever!

2010-10-27T08:44:00.000-07:00

I looked back at the month of October (not ending yet), realize work had been the major part of which I'm spending my time doing. I always dislike going through the month of October because It makes me feel old, maybe it's my birth month and as always, looking back makes me emomost of the time.

But with this year, as my responsibility increase at work, i had to learn to put my emotions aside and get my job done. It's not been easy with juggling with all the things to be done: deadlines, events, people, clients...

Having to really squeeze my brain for an idea good enough to present to people everyday seams to be a challenge with so limited time and with no-break time.

Yes, I work like mad till i forget to eat at time that i should.

Having to settle for the coming car's road-tax and insurance due before next month, and before that having to settle my summons to the police before renewing my road-tax, plus servicing my car which I've exceeded 1000KM or more.

I thank God for my parents for their help to settle my road-tax and insurance for me, and getting some "nagging" in the process, because they have to lend me some money to settle it.

Coming back to work, having to handle 2 events in a day really taxed my body. Having to arrange everything myself, hoping that everything will run smooth-ly to impress my company.

Everything went well until someone did a minor mistake and offended some customers. Well, i don't blame that person, he/she just did what was told.

Being the person in-charge, the full responsibility was on me as complain reach to me in every direction. I took the courage to be in charge and take full responsibility of how to improve my service to customers. A painful yet humbling experience to learn from, to improve what I'm lacking at to serve better.

I know I can't please everyone, but i did give it my best shot in providing the best service i could do.

I guess we as humans (even talking to myself), will always look for the tiny imperfect spots we can find in a beautiful picture, rather than appreciating the whole effort put in by the artist.

I just have to be careful the next time don't I??

Guess What??!!

2010-10-26T20:39:00.001-07:00

I'm officially 22 and have a curfew to be back home before 12.30am.

Yes, it's recently being impose on me.

*You are welcome to write a petition to my parents on this*

Bittersweet symphony/Amazing Grace/My Chains are Gone

2010-10-14T19:22:00.000-07:00

Benjamin Soo!!! Remember this piece we almost played 2 years ago for church event??

I found the video on Youtube. I wonder with our skills now better than 2 years ago, can we do this better than Hillsong did??

Maybe they have big orchestra to accompany them, well we just have to be better!! Make it our own. Might consider buying a sequencer so we play recording + full band live!!!

He loves us, oh how He loves us...

Just a thought

2010-10-05T22:47:00.000-07:00

With all the craziness of life evolving around me between work, church and event managing. With the feeling of tiredness after work, i wish my room will be the place of my comfort, i mean the feeling of "welcoming" rather than that way it is.

I really had no time to really do anything about my room. It's been the same thing since 2008, darn it's 2 years now and it still look the same, the only thing different now than the picture below is the curtain.

(picture taken in February 2008)

Well, maybe the posters was a good first step on "decorating my room". Since then, nothing really major happened unless for posters falling off and relative coming to view my room with good and bad comment. To the extend of saying "I'm following the steps of the world", well i know I'm not so I should't be bothered right...

I've plan to paint my room black (this is controversial with so many others, including my parents), may i say that this is because I wanted to have Galaxy feel as currently i have "glow in the dark" stars on my ceiling of my room, so why not make it a reality??

Well, I had a plan but no time to execute. I shall make it happen in the near future...

I shall... soon...

He loves us, oh how He loves us...

2010-10-04T08:26:00.000-07:00

Today, I took leave from work as my body is not feeling well. And as usual, staying at home doing nothing is not an option to me as I love my work. Basically I force myself to take a break today.

Well, another reason was I was feeling kinda down today. Maybe I'm pushing hard on myself too much with all that is expected of me.

Stumbled upon a video on someone's blog that totally changed my mood for the day. And it speaks of how great is His love to every single one of us. Just had that moment of "AWE" once again as i listen to the song.

He is jealous for me

Love's like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me.

Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us so.

Yeah, He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves.

So we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean we're all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way

That he loves us,
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves

He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves

This song is covered so many times, people like David Crowder Band and Israel Houghton to name a few. Must be because it's impact on people's life.

Speechless, totally.

Tales of a Smelly feet

2010-09-26T07:51:00.000-07:00

Some may ask, what is with the title?? First of all, wearing formal for events is not cool or should i say troublesome. With the things we are carrying to the exhibition hall, with the energy wasted bringing all that we thought was important is never fun and tiring.

Yes, I was in Mid Valley for work over the weekend. It's a place i never want to go shopping for the time being. From the parking (including the charges of the parking), attitude of the people who are there, until the "never reach in time" public transport I had a bad experience to all of them. Well, most of it.

Well, knowing myself for the past 22 years, maybe I'm over sensitive over such lousy things. So i took public transport system which KL had to offer. Thinking of just a few seconds that "MAYBE" KL public transport had change for the better, i challenge myself to travel using it to Mid-Valley. OMG, i was totally wrong!!! Never want to do it again, please!!! To the point of don't want to think of it anymore, i rather walk!!!

Coming back to the event, It was not much people as expected but I did enjoy listening to the talks of investment. Well, I should start saving money for future right?? Rather than spending all out on what i have.

And yes, on the last day there was "Belly Dancing" (and all the guys went nuts!!!), i didn't enjoy it because i was working and there was a guys Belly Dancing, so my mood was spoil.

That's all for now, till next time...

Worship God Conference 2010 in DUMC

2010-09-21T20:26:00.000-07:00

Took few days off from work to attend this conference, with the busy life life that i have currently, need this breather once a while. At first i was reluctant to be going for this conference, but my worship director did encourage me to attend this, I'm glad that i listened to him.

I really wish that i could attend all the workshop as i want to absorb all that knowledge that others may know more than me. And guess what, I was blown away every single session, either workshop or plenary session... Yes, few tears dropped in the process, just a few.

I cant be saying a lot so I'll let the video of the guess speaker do it, his name is Glenn Packiam, A Malaysian by the way.

I'm still digesting all that I've received in that conference into words. And If it's ready, I'll post it up in my blog.

P/S: someone said my English is funny, so I'll try to write properly from now on...

Matthew 11:28-30

2010-09-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

Matthew 11:28-30

"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart:

and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."

Perseverance 10 years and on...

2010-09-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

As long as i can remember, I don't really remember how i started playing drums. I used to be amazed with my dad playing instrument in church those days (yes, my dad does play musical instrument those days) and just sit in during church service watch him play for the whole service. I thought he was the most talented drummer of all time, he was my drumming hero at that moment, come to think of it, maybe because I was not expose to so much of the drumming world as i was not really interested in drums at first.

I remembered playing my first time for church service, i felt so bad as others was watching me play for the service. I had such a bad feeling that I "almost" gave it up playing the week later for screwing up a lot of the songs.

But years past, so does my skills in playing the drums. Looking back, it has been a journey that i could never imagine possible happening in my life, felt like it was a dream that only happen when i sleep (which doesn't happen very often as well).

I remembered this occasion where this boy (from my church Chinese Service department) was amazed at my ability to play the drums. The mother came and told me that as he was shy to say so. The mother also told me he wants to be like me, my ability i mean. I took him aside and told him a simple statement "if people tell you you're not good, prove them wrong!!". Ever since that day, i see he does train as hard as possible.

He might be better than me right now or not, that's not the important thing. The important thing is being perseverance on what he believed that he is good at.

So for those who is reading, believe in what you're good at. It might be writing, towards making a delicious cake (impromptu ideas), if you think you're good at it, believe in what you have.

A heart message sincerely from me,

Calebraj

btw, the boy is now a youth and his name is John something (i dont remember).

Acoustic Guitar

2010-09-02T08:48:00.000-07:00

ME playing a Takamine Nashville series guitar (high end Takamine Japan),

unfortunately, this body is bigger, does not fit a skinny feller like me.

One of the guitar i love playing because of the sound, every time it sound nice.

Acoustic guitars had been part of my life for more than 10 years now, I always was in love with acoustic guitars even before I knew how to play it. I guess it does bring my emotion to more to a personal level as for me to figure out my emotion before i go nuts!!!

For your information, this is where i will be if I'm really stressed out at work, some spot, same guitar (if the guitar is still there that is), I guess sounds does make me feel good, doesn't matter it's from a guitar, drum or piano keyboard.

Because of that, my expectation of sound from a source whether it's guitar, drums, keyboard, bass, strings instrument, piano had to be just perfect. If not I'll be stressed out while closing my ear or to the extend of leaving that place (hopefully not, haha)

If any of you want to try this perfectly done guitar, please let me know so we can jam together.

This should be it for this time, till next time...

P/S: Myke Ong May Ying, when are you coming to try all this guitars??!! Come la...

Precious Moment

2010-08-31T11:10:00.000-07:00

Even since I start working in my HQ in Mutiara Damansara, i don't have much time to be with my family for dinner, as my dad is off on Sundays, while me on Wednesdays/Thursdays. So time for me to see my dad face to face is very limited, only on my off day i get to see him, that depends if I'm home...

For those who has seen me and my family on Astro AEC channel, you all may see that me and my family sitting on the floor eating together, that will never happened at home!!! Ever!!! That's only for TV OK!!! We normally just eat ourself and doesn't care about others, haha.

But once a while (very rarely) we do go out as a family for dinner outside. And i cherish every moment that we have as a family together, although we always fight against each other at home, but somehow we are OK at the end.

Enough said, I'm truly blessed to have great bunch of family members although they can be annoying at times. Cheers...

photo taken by my mom, it was her first time taking photo

me, my second younger sister and my first younger sister.

Both of my sister are noisy, haha :P

A year has passed

2010-08-25T10:06:00.000-07:00

Exactly a year ago, I made a bold but baby step into the world of working life, leaving behind a lot of things in the process. Even some hearts that i had no choice but to break, specially my parents, my youth, my musicians, my parents, my pastors, my church members - english, chinese and bahasa service. And ever since, people had been saying I made the wrong choice and I should quit my job to come back to church to serve. I wonder should i listen to people or should i listen to myself??

I remember being the worship director in the youth, there is so many things i planned to do to build the worship ministry, as if I was the person that is to bring the change, but God show me that i was only a tool for making that change, but it was all God, who made the final decision.

Being almost called a "veteran" in church worship ministry at the age of 20 was another of my comfort zone. Playing in week in week out on drums since i was 15 taught me a lot of things -patients, to be reserve, to observe, unity and to be encouraging. But there was a point in my life playing in church, i wanted to quit and just become a normal member or maybe the most an usher. But every time God pull me back into His arms of love and encourage me.

People had been asking me, how did I started to pick up drums to where i am today. Until now, the truth is I don't know how it's started, but i remembered how i used to be amazed with my dad's ability to play guitars, drum and bass in church (my dad was the part of the senior church band those days). Sometimes I'll just look at him and be amazed at his skills. Since then, I vowed to be better than him. But my dad did help me to be where i am today, it was him who taught me how to play guitar (with his old school kapok guitar at home which is older than me).

Looking back, I have never want my life to be different, because I got more than what i deserve so I'm thankful for everything i had and what will i have...

To all that had been a part of me while growing up, whether directly or indirectly, thank you so much for you all are the reason where I am currently, you all pour out your heart in teaching me which sometimes some of you had to go through a few times just to make me understand. Appreciate it very much.

P/S: This kind of anniversary things always makes me emo, it makes me feel not good as I'm getting older by the day and dome nothing much significant for the previous year. Something that i need to overcome...

(I wonder, does God bring us to our best like how a sound engineer put out the best by tweaking us to the best level of sound possible?? I think so)

Captured by a Song

2010-08-19T08:55:00.000-07:00

Soon and very soon
My King is coming
Robed in righteousness
And crowned with love
When I see Him, I shall be made like Him
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
I'll be going to the place He has prepared for me
Then my sin erased, my shameful garden
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
See the procession
The angels and the elders round the thrown
At His feet I lay
My grant, my wishing
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Though I have not seen Him
My heart knows Him well
Jesus Christ the Lamb, the Lord of heaven

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon
Soon and very soon
Soon and very soon

I was captured by this wonderful song, totally speechless...

Majesty

2010-08-12T08:23:00.000-07:00

Majesty

Your grace has found me just as I am

Empty handed but alive in Your hands

Singing Majesty

Majesty

Forever I am changed by Your love

In the beauty of Your Majesty

This song hit me so deeply like a spear straight into the core of my heart today as i sit back and search my feelings. Many times, we feel we should be doing something to feel the sense of achievement right?? We got too busy that it become a norm to feel busy.

Well, i struggle with this sometimes and every time i do so, His peace with overflow me in the truth that He loves me unconditionally. What a joy to be call His sons and daughters as He died to see us live and communicate back with Him.

Psalm 135:14

For the LORD will give justice to his people and have compassion on his servants.

Art Exhibition

2010-08-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

As I'm working for Bentley Music HQ, which has a gorgeous Auditorium located inside the building, a lot of events are coming up as people know the existence of this wonderful hall. One of the example is Henry Butcher's Art Exhibition happened today.

Yes, it was my first time in an art exhibition. Seeing how people appreciate painting (which I'm not good at) make me amaze of how much people would spend to just get one paintings that cost more like a price for a house??!!

Maybe that's why I'm not into painting art stuff.

Javanese Girl, painted in 1954

by Dato' Mohd. Hoessien Enas (1924-1995)

A piece of the art sold in this event, sold for RM X00,000!!!

(the X digit is higher than number 4)

See the value???

Cool stuff right?? Not gonna say a lot, just live to my max. Stay tune for more events. I'm gonna enjoy every moment of it.

*Life is Good*

My 5 minutes of fame on TV

2010-08-06T07:25:00.000-07:00

For those who missed this, including myself, a repeat show of the program I was on.

It feels weird watching myself being on TV, but it's fun. Cheers for more things to come... Enjoy...

I've decided!!!

2010-08-04T18:34:00.001-07:00

After a very simple suggestion with Rock School's representative, i took much time to think of the path that i should take musically in my drumming. Been playing since i was 12 magically (i still don't know how i started), i always dream for more crazy stuff i can do on my drums.

Recently, I've almost gave up of playing my drums as i doesn't find the joy in playing it, working was another reason I don't have much time to practice or play. Might be because i feel like I'm not improving or playing in a bigger stage was only a dream to me, might be because I want to move to do something else

(maybe towards acoustic guitar or piano).

I was basically struggling with the step i should take at this crossroad of my life, until this God given chance of a lifetime 1 on 1 talk with the Rock School representative. It was like throwing a spear right through my heart and hitting the bullseye!!!

Watching Arthur Playing was another reason got me back interested in drumming, because the beat he play was part of my music that i'm interested to take up, which is Latin

(the father of all music and the hardest of all to play)

(myself on Arthur's drumset)

So after a few days of thinking this through, I've decided I'll be pursue my drumming in Bentley Music Academy Mutiara Damansara to get my Diploma in Drumming starting next year.

(i have to prepare myself mentally and physically for this challenge, that's why next year)

Arthur Kam's Farewell concert

2010-08-04T15:26:00.000-07:00

August 1 mark a very special day for Arthur Kam, a very special young man with such a great talent which the family had put in the effort to raise fun for his studies in Berkeley College of Music in US. I can say this this friend of mine, has nothing more to learn to Malaysia, that's why he had to go further to the States to be the best, if not his talent will be a waste.

Being someone who plays with Arthur since young, i couldn't play as well as Arthur till now although I'm older by 3 years.

(The great Andy Peterson jamming with Arthur - Rehearsing)

(back view of Arthur)

I know Arthur as a perfectionist, someone who demands for complete stuff, never will compromise for something sloppy. Well, there is this women in Arthur life which is his sister, the famous Genervie Kam (a keyboard player, Malaysia's best violin player) that always guide Arthur to where he is now.

Anyway, this concert had a very respected people in their lineup, including Faisal Tahir and his band which Arthur is playing for. I wish i could be in Faisal Tahir's band to create some great music.

Well, Arthur if you're reading this, Take care of yourself in the States, be patient and be humble. When you come back, we jam together ya.

Flying without Wings by Eastlife!!!!

2010-08-03T07:30:00.001-07:00

Was browsing through my facebook account and found back this video, it still does make me laugh although I'm one of those people acted in this. But it's so cool when the time we went and do this, Thanks Joash Chan for initiating the idea and editing the video, we did have crazily awesome time together making this video.

Flying Without Wings from Joash Chan on Vimeo.

Watch this with laughter because not that crazy anymore

Herman Li's guitar clinic

2010-07-30T09:19:00.000-07:00

For those who didn't came, you missed it!!! It was like magical to get to meet one of the top guitarist from a metal band called DRAGONFORCE. As I am a drummer, he is someone i would rather have in my band to play together, but who am I to compare to Herman Li right??

Well, he taught a lot of good tips to those who came, and even I learn a few tips along the way. Well enough said, more things to come. Stay tune...

Yes, he has long hair. Some people even ask what shampoo does he use, i think he can be a spokesperson for some shampoo company.

For those who didn't come, he gave away his signature guitar picks that you cant find it in Malaysia, and i got one, how cool is that??!!!!

till next time...

What I'm up to These Days

2010-07-14T20:37:00.000-07:00

Yes, as you all may know, my job now mostly involve doing events in Bentley Music Auditorium, Mutiara Damansara. Yes, at times it might be tiring, but I'm actually enjoying every minute of it. And that's what pushing me to go forward to take up this job.

I truly believe that during my college days, it has really provide me a training ground as i was involve with a lot of events. To me it was like a stepping stone to where I am know. (yes, i am starting to look back to what i have achieve in college days). Although sometimes i do look down on TAR college, for our sucky timetable arrangement, just ask Michelle Wong and Myke Ong May Yang(my 2 craziest girls friends) on how till now i still blame the college for sucky timetable.

But seriously, I've learn a lot through the whole process indirectly or directly.

I'm truly humbled by the chance given to me by my company, even though i didn't have much experience comparing to other applicants who applied for this as well. What I'm trying to say is "good times to come" as my company is growing in every direction, so am I learning much more than i can think of.

Well, that's all for now.

Just for those who had not come over to Wisma Bentley Music, Mutiara Damansara. Just some video taken in our Auditorium. It's a drum battle anyway...

Something wrong somewhere

2010-06-23T12:14:00.000-07:00

Just a few photos caught my eyes in Langkawi.

This one above, near a waterfall (which is dry, LOL)

This is in the city

I saw my ex-bandmembers

2010-06-20T20:43:00.000-07:00

Just some update, I was in The Curve today to watch my college mate band called Rosevelt playing Gig for HELP College event. Man it was awesome at the fountain between The Curve and E-curve. Don'k know how, i met my ex-band members from "Halfway Kings". It's been some time since 2009 that we last played together for UCSI's Earth Hour.

(those times with this crazy people)

Rachel Corrie Humanitarian Ship, a big Malaysia Media propaganda

2010-06-17T06:59:00.000-07:00

As i was watching TV today, somehow i saw a documentary on TV3 as some Malaysia Group try to send help to Gaza by sending a cargo ship call "Rachel Corrie". Man, it was so one

sided documentary, that's why i didn't want to pursue my Mass Communication Degree and work in the News Industry in Malaysia, which mostly is control by the government of Malaysia.

As i watch the so called "documentary", something struck my thoughts. Why bother sending all the help which in the first place Malaysian Passport said "no entry to Israel"?? Whether those who went to the middle east trying to be a hero or what, i don't have an idea. Maybe to get the attention of the whole world's sympathy?? (which the media particularly feeding our mind with this for specific reason)

Yes, I do agree and the history shows that Israel is the most persecuted people on the planet since ages ago. It's not their fault being born as a SMART NATION as a whole(it's a fact), they are just gifted every possible way because they had to to overcome all the persecution from the Arab world.

Another thing that i just couldn't comprehend. People living in Gaza have been complaining about they want no war, no bombing and no violent. I don't understand why they still choose to live there after all those had happen and happening in that place?? Have they ever thought of moving to somewhere that have better life??

Hello!!! you people in Gaza know the risk and still doing nothing about it, come on la, think smarter!!! Maybe you all can go to some other country, like Abu Dhabi to rebuild you life again rather than risking your life for nothing. Ask UN to help or go to any embassy, they will help for sure.

I'm not pointing fingers on who the culprits are, just some thoughts that goes through my mind that i should make it clear about this issue.

Just save your energy, this issue between Palestine and Israel will not end even after the end of the world, because it's written in the Bible and the Quran.

The so called "rachel corrie" humanitarian relief ship, on it's way to Gaza strip.

If you want to read the news, press here. If you have comment, write on my chatbox, thanks.

New P1 modem

2010-06-03T22:59:00.000-07:00

(if you have the chance, don't use this, it sucks big time, well even streamyx sucks)

Yes, i got a new P1 WIMAX modem today, such a hassle after my previous modem a bit cacat for the past 2 month or so. Been complaining for ages, they keep saying service upgrade la, connection poor la etc. Recently only they said "might be having problem with the modem", why can't they just change the freaking thing if customers having problem?? It's still under warranty ma...

Was in the service center which are so slow, forcing people to wait very long for their service at their counter, and guess what?? Their attitude is bad as well!!! Maybe she was having a bad day too, i don't blame her. It's a sucky job anyway...

Well, bad news aside. I was in SAE (School of Audio Engineering) for a recording project of my church youth to produce an album at the end of the year, hopefully that comes true. Started out at 12am, ended at 6am!!!! And only managed to record a drum cover and vocals, i didn't know life in studio is that hard, imagine how long is it to finish producing an album...

After recording, have to rush to my company at Mutiara Damansara at 9am for a product examination on Brass & Wodwind instrument which I'm really not prepared, lucky enough it's not fully subjective (hail the creator of multiple choices question), i think i did well for it.

Basically, not sleeping yet till i reach home at 4pm.

Well, busy day and early rest for me... Till Next time...

I was Never Angry, not even a moment in it

2010-06-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

If you all was active on facebook last week, you will not miss out where I "bising" about my work where supposedly some top management people told me to be down to KL branch.

To tell you the truth, I was quite OK with it because it's been while since i went back to KL side (i was there before working in my position right now).

The only thing I was not happy about is that half way driving into KL, my management actually call me back and ask me to return to where i was before going to KL side. I just don't understand the logic behind that decision.

I mean, I felt like a ball being kicked by others, well that's my feeling at the moment.

Many people try to talk to me about this incident, but what i can say is I think some decision can be execute better than what has happen, just make sure it doesn't happen to anyone else next time.

Once again i say, I was not pissed. End of Story.

At least something good happen that day, I was on Astro AEC!!!

I like this T-shirt, hopefully i can get one...

John Tempesta's Drum Clinic

2010-05-29T03:49:00.000-07:00

Hi, just to inform you guys and girls that Bentley Music is having a drum clinic on the 30th May 2010, in Mutiara Damansara Side. Tickets is at RM50 and it starts at 4pm, if you are interested, please let me know by calling my phone at 016-2685163...
Tickets are limited, so better hurry

More things to come, so stay tune...

P/S: I've start blogging more recently, i hope this doesn't stop...

Langkawi trip and life

2010-05-23T08:00:00.000-07:00

This picture is just some highlight of my first langkawi trip ever, and yes it's my first time on the airplane. A good rest just before me transfer-ing to my current position in Bentley Music.

Well, just some update on my life. Work life is not easy, but I'm enjoying it. Get to meet a lot of people, artist and handling a lot of product which i never done it before which to me is interesting, things such as handling HOMEGROWN shooting, and recently a reality program called KEYNOTE, which just finish today.

Well, this Langkawi trip taught me a lot of things. People outside KL has so simple life but they enjoy it unlike us who are in the city. Many nice people on the way, cheap liquor (not that i drink that much, it's just an excuse), well people like to enjoy life over there, not like us going for the riches of the world in the city.

I actually thank God for this trip, that let me think while I rest. I bet I'm going to do this again sometime soon, maybe Thailand the next time, the island i mean, not Bangkok...

Time had Change

2010-05-05T21:58:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not blogging for some time, many things happening at the same time. Plus my WIMAX connection is getting sulky at night, argh!!!!

Things such as Kelly Clarkson's concert for FREE was the highlight of all these.

For those who had yet to know, I'm the Marketing and PR Coordinator of Bentley Music and my job for this position starts from 15th May 2010. Yes, I'll be based in Mutiara Damansara, near IKEA from that time onwards. This was something I didn't expect to happen in the near future, I always thought something like this will not happen for time being. But God show me that He can move mountains ahead of me and bless me "gao gao". I thank you for those who send me birthday wish last year which a few had really came through by this promotion. I credit all this to the ONE whom I adore.

What I can say is this is all a miracle if you ask me, as i said to everyone, It's not going to be easy task as the days moves on, but I'll take it one step at a time, trusting that God is walking with me through all this, and when He is around, I shall not fear evil but I'll walk through the Valley of death (sure boh??). So whatever is it, I know I will overcome it so we'll see...

I love it but I don't have the time

2010-03-18T06:39:00.001-07:00

Recently, someone came to me saying the church is setting up a system where they are recruiting new member for the working team, since i was the ex-drummer so called, they ask me to start the drum class. I know the existence of how many people wants to learn drums, but with the working hours which is d**n packed, even going to church on Sundays is a problem for me. So basically I'm lost whether to say "yes" or "no" for the class. If i say yes, i don't have the time. If i say no, people might get discourage...

So how?? only God can help me, or he send another person to help la...

Shooting!!

2010-03-14T07:06:00.000-07:00

Yes, i took the ASTRO offer and the shooting just begin and ended in a few days. They came to church, and like i expected, no one knows about their coming and asked me whether they are my friend, i was like "do a friend come over with a video camera??" So they took video of me playing what i do best, play the drums.

2nd day:

came to my house for shooting, man it was crazy. So many things i didn't know about my own freakin race!!! Got the chance to listen thanks to my parents saying it on camera for the first time than letting me know all this while. Sat on the floor for lunch, was to eat with my hands (malunye), but i said no!!! haha... Dad continue shooting about traditional attire of my people which i didn't know much, lucky me.

3rd day:

came to my work place, in Mutiara Damansara. Why they wanted to do in that branch?? well, i don't know, it seams there is better place for taking video, lame!!! Management decision. well, it didn't went well as expected, but whatever la. Changed a few location because management said so...

So that's pretty much the shooting that it did, for those who is asking whether I've receive any $$$ as a result, there was nothing given to me, or till now nothing yet. But they promise a DVD copy that they will pass it to me later.

So for those who really is crazy thinking that i'm gonna be famous, tune in somewhere is May of June to ASTRO AEC, program called 我来自华小 .

By the way, I've just got a pay rise!!! How awesome is that??!!!

Should I??

2010-03-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

Recently, someone got to a hold of my telephone number and said she was from a media company. I found out that her company wanting to do a documentary on people who is not Chinese, but speak Chinese. I was like ok fine, I'll help you.

Time passed and after so many phone calls asking me about my race and details which i don't really know, they told me they wanted to come over my house for filming, so i was like shock. Because i thought it's something that would never really happen in my life. They even ask permission of my company to do shooting in my shop. They might even go to my church for filming.

You know, being in the line of broadcasting studying, i thought it would be easy, but that is being the staff that is working and not the "SUBJECT". So something new for me, I might just be a little step for me back into my line of work, hopefully.

Or maybe another step for me to become famous, who knows...

Well, another time I'll write down the details. Cause I've just been told, they might just "tipu" me, i don't know, we'll see...

Business!!!!

2010-02-24T18:04:00.000-08:00

Yes, currently I'm quite busy with work, plus having a slow connection makes it hard for me to blog... So sorry guys if there is not much update on my blog on mylife, anything you can check out my facebook for updates.

Chinese New Year

2010-02-16T18:08:00.000-08:00

So boring!!! This is what happened during my Chinese new year. I thought that these time would be some awesome event i cannot forget, but boy i was wrong. Being a non-Chinese really got me thinking what am I?? I seam to be quite lost in identifying myself. Well, as i would explain myself to others, I'm just a "ROJAK" in simple language.

As i continue to ponder on this, some thoughts hit my mind eventually. This festival thingy is a very good date for all to be back enjoying each other right?? Or to the Chinese people it seams so... it came to my senses that it's a very good reason to come back home. The Question is why am i bored??? LOL!!! Because all of my friends (being 90%) are with their families and others taking a break from work. So i had to be alone for most of the time, oh well just take a good rest from work... No choice, haha

Anyway, 2 days ago i was here TWICE!!! It was a random decision to go up after work, driving at night some more...

the purpose is for "entering casino the first time", well I didn't gamble, i didn't have the guts to do so, and no money of cause. The other reason is i dont gamble, only watch people gamble till morning, LOL!!

Well, at lease i had fun before chinese new year!!! I hope you do too... enjoy your holidays...

Crocs fever!!!

2010-02-09T16:57:00.000-08:00

FEVER!!!!

I decided to get this, along with my sister who started all this!!!

I've never worn a slippers ever since, although it looks "not that nice"

This is mine!!!!

Stupid People

2010-02-03T19:22:00.001-08:00

As I'm working in Bukit Bintang area, there is this place where i park my car behind my working place, the problem is that It's free. I just couldn't understand why there are some MALAYsian who simply "TRIPLE park" their car and dont even write down their number in case people want to go out... At least put your number so people can call you easily la. Dah la I seams to get their number so freaking hard way, mana tau that "sakai" went for movie!!!

What the hell!!!

Some more can start scolding me!!!

Grow up la, stupid!!! One day you will kena la, you just see. And it's not gonna be me...

Happy Anniversary!!!

2010-02-01T22:00:00.000-08:00

This is my parents, and this day they will be erm...

23 years being married i think??

wait, if I'm 22, than yes I'm correct!!!

Suppose to go to Ipoh at first on the day, I was to play for a wedding but couldn't make it.

Went to Kajang for SATAY, wasn't that nice also. End up going to Port Klang for fun...

If only my sister follow, everything would fall into places, shame on you!!! Want to rest konon...

Was to belanja my parents for nice dinner, got cancel because of her also, haiz!!!

Anyway, hope that both my parents will have good life together,

through thick and thin,

we will always love you!!!

Soon

2010-01-29T06:04:00.000-08:00

I'll Be getting this very soon!!!

Yes, i mean it, really really soon!!!

It's start of something great this year...

After a while

2010-01-25T11:47:00.000-08:00

Yes, it's been a while since I was sick. And finally it happened!!! yay!! So it's my first since I started working, so that's for my record.

So basically been sleeping the whole day plus with awesome dosage of "flu medicine" (just a little bit), I will sleep through the night. Maybe these day I've not been sleeping well, so this is my time where my body say to rest as much as possible.

Yes, got my MC and hopefully i can claim my RM 32 from my company back...

OK should be heading to bed, till next time...

MyVi Transformers!!!

2010-01-22T05:33:00.001-08:00

This is so funny, got this from some other site on the Internet

It's a Myvi Transformers!!! How cool is that??

A big mistake

2010-01-20T08:48:00.000-08:00

I had this a few days ago, not the whole thing but only some, haha...

I thought what a small little cute lollipop can do right?? Boy i was wrong!!! So to cut the story shorter, i was basically sucking this for almost 2 freaking hours!!! Darn, it cant be bitten off or something like that, stupid Americans!!!

The result= I suck this until my tongue and the roof of my mouth

was bleeding literally, believe it or not??!!!

But the truth is the lollipop really is nice!!!

I was seriously lost today!!!

2010-01-18T21:41:00.000-08:00

I was lost in the mids of the down pouring in the city

which i had lived for the past 22 years of my life.

How could this happen right??!! But it did...

Another stupid thing that happen on the same day.

I was having lunch my my colleague and we both slept in the MAMAK stall!!!

How lame was that??!!!

Sign of ageing you mean?? Maybe...

I'm so gonna get it this year!!!!

2010-01-16T08:50:00.000-08:00

A freaking MacBook!!!

My computer is so dead now that the only thing that can save me is this!!!

God, i need Your help in getting this, this is my only wish and target for this year,

so help me God...

Reply with Love

2010-01-08T05:54:00.000-08:00

i guess everyone is still shock on the incident which 3 churches got "physically shaken" early today. Truly i say here, I know something like this would happen, just the matter of time because it has happen in Indonesia before. What i would like to say it, this is the time where we should not create hatred in our heart but show mercy to those in need of it.

Yes, I'm not happy with the situation and i have my feelings on this issue, but if you're looking at it the same way I did, you're missing the point!!! Just for a moment, find out what is this situation speaking to us?? what is it really saying??

How should we react, you may ask?? Search for the Almighty, whatever you might call it. ALLAH or God or whatever, that's up to you.

I believe Revival is on it's way, really do. But first the people must be ready for it's coming, and it's time!!!

True fact- if you're not ready for it, it'll just pass you by...

So for those who is fearing the whole situation, fear not for God is with you.

In the chaos, in confusion
I know you're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do your will

I love this photo!!!!

2010-01-03T06:34:00.000-08:00

Was in Chili's KLCC, trying to colour some small kids stuff with crayon,

mind you with only ONE FREAKING CRAYON!!!!

Trying to eat like a MAN!!! but got caught eating like barbarian,

but that's how people eat Chilli's burger!!!

Didn't perasan Myke took this photo, was watching football match on TV.

Thanks Kathlyn for the awesome camera you had...

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

2010-01-01T05:43:00.000-08:00

Another year pass and gone by, as age increase by another year, so is our responsibilities. I was like darn, I'll be 22 next year, so fast??!!!! But i'm looking forward in my career as I'm going permanent in working life. And of cause to earn more money!!! Like i blog before, i said that most of my 2009 resolution is completed, most surprisingly is my car. Really thankful that i have one to travel around and be a blessing to fetch others. As i was in church at the eve of the new year, been really thankful for God has been good all the time, through time of trial and difficulties, He is there drawing Himself to us. What a joy knowing that truth!!!

For me, one song really make an impact on the eve of the new year. The song called

-Amazing grace (my chains are gone)-

I was totally hit by the words of the songs as follow

My chains are gone, I've been set free
My God my Saviour has ransomed me
Like a flood, His mercy brings
Unending love, amazing grace

So to all, live freely, for what is your past is not worth carrying forward, drop that "chain" and move forward, for there is more things intended made for you and I. So don't settle for the second best, go for the BEST even when it take risk to achieve it.

P/S: The RISK i was saying about is not meant for bad, so think before doing it.

Car Service

2009-12-03T05:41:00.000-08:00

I did my car servicing for the first time. Darn, it's not cheap!!! spend more than Rm400 for it...

Item Changed:

1. Engine oil

2. oil filter

3. 2 front sides of Brake pads

4. Alignment

5. 2 CONTINENTAL tires

6. Brake fluid

All this for RM400+??!!! Crazy right??

Thank God that i had my dad, because by then only i can use his credit card, haha. But i had to pay him back eventually.

I almost got him to buy me a new set of sport rims!!! Mom said don't, darn!!! Maybe the next time..

My car, my car!!!

2009-11-11T17:46:00.000-08:00

Finally, my connection is fast enough to post some pictures...

If you're wondering, below is my car/ my PIMP ride. Really am thankful to my parents to let me have this, this was my dream car and I've got it as my first car!!! How cool is that??!! Praise God that this has been a blessing to me in providing a shelter under the rain and especially escaping the "public transport" system in the city.

After having the ride of my life, i realize that it's not easy to maintain it.

Petrol, service, tire change, road tax, insurance...

Wow, so much responsibilities for a transport...

Oh well, better i take this chance to be responsible to grow into adult-hood.

What next??!! Some chick to complete my ride of cause!!! haha.

(my twin exhaust, how cool is that?)

Forgot to mention, I've just past my licence like 3 months ago, and this car is under my name. Awesome right?? Nowadays, been driving to work everyday, because of the rain and free parking behind my showroom, i choose to drive everyday although the traffic in the city sucks!!!

So if you like, i can fetch people around if I'm free. What should i name my car?? hmm...

Never!!!

(just spot what is change in the engine, tell me if you know...)

Another wish of mine that came through, speechless!!! Ever since i got my car, i haven't wash it even once!!!

Psa 20:4 May God do what you want most and let all go well for you.

Psa 37:4 Do what the LORD wants, and he will give you your heart's desire.

P/S: So dream big!!! Don't let anything stop you from dreaming big!!!

I wish, really wish

2009-11-10T05:59:00.000-08:00

I wish i can play guitar like him, really a wish...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cw5-6ZdFceI

"A step of Faith", just a simple one...

2009-11-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

Today service started out very well, kudos to all the working team. It's been around 2 month since i step down from church activity, it was not a very easy decision to take, it was a step of faith for me. After what i have seen today in church, i felt good that I should have done that very long time ago to let others take my place, but because my heart was not at ease at doing that at that time, i didn't do it. At least now that I'm working, I'm beginning to learn on how to learn repairing guitar.

Hey, that something that i didn't know I could do right?? But it's been good experience, but I really miss church so badly, the people, the sermon, the worship and the fun that we had during those days, yes to me it's "those days"... Times have change and we have to make certain decision to move on, so that's my "step of faith" to move on. To think of it, my prayer last time was to move on to other things other than playing drums 'week in, week out' in church, consider that somehow my prayer got answered. But i love my job now although the management a bit sucky but that's life. I enjoy meeting people that is more talented than me so i could learn from them.

So what I'm saying is, go and chase for your dreams realistically!!!

Don't blindly chase after the wind, because it's worthless!!!

P/S: I'll be back to the church one day, don't know when but one day...

My 21st Birthday celebration

2009-10-26T07:23:00.001-07:00

As it's the time of the year again where I'm celebrating my birthday again, yes again. But like every year of my birthday celebration, it's something that I feel not to celebrate, well that's just me. Especially in teenagers life, 21st celebration is something very crazy and said to 'not miss out'. I just have things about birthday parties, that's why.

Don't you ever feel that every birthday party is basically the same?? The same cake, food, snacks and even same games, lame... Oh i remember the most was the wafer which parents like to buy so much, but the kids hate it?? I mean the red-ish/pink chocolate wafer... I so hate that now!!! haha

To let you all know, i didn't want to celebrate my 21th birthday at first. But after making noise with my parents who wanted to celebrate it, i eventually gave in into the idea. But it's not a big deal, parents ma...

I had Steamboat BBQ buffet for the eve of my birthday celebration. And guess what... I vomited after going back home, what a way to celebrate my 21st!!! I had too much of it (it was free ma), serve you right Calebraj!!! Tried to be very greedy.

After going back home, i was surprise by my parents with a new Casio watch. I had an old one which "kaput" month ago. I so needed it so much, until i use my phone as my watch. My sisters also gave me a towel, which came as a surprise too. For all those who wished my whether on facebook or sms, thank you very much, you all really made my day...

P/s: Enjoy your life because life is short, like me, I'm 21 and soon I'll not have the chance to do crazy things anymore, so when you have the chance to do it now, go all out!!!

Peace out!!!

Reflection

2009-09-17T22:33:00.000-07:00

THURSDAY, JANUARY 1, 2009

2009 resolution

My resolution for the year 2009

1. Buy an acoustic guitar. Yes this must happen this year or else!!!

(Sister own one, so consider mine also la)

2. still considering whether to continue STUDY or WORK.
(working, and i love my job!!)

3. Go mission to Philippines but get my pastport first.
(not completed)

4. I WAN'T A CAR!!! hope my parents grant me one, but most importantly- my driving license!!

(completed with flying colours plus i have a car now!!! yay!!!)

5. Produce an album. My church youth first album, hopefully.
(in the process)

This is my wanted list for the year 2009, i think it's achieveable but requires a lot of money and hard work(not really), i mean hard work to earn the money. haha.
Wanting to take a break this year and really find the meaning of life, the ultimate goal of my life.

P/S: if you feel like contributing to my life, please do so, i will truly be blessed.

This was what i wanna achive for this year, those in purple are all achieved by myself realising it. Wow, and it's not even the last quater of the year yet!!! For a moment i thought that this was imposibble, but God has to blow me off with His masterplan to include my wish, and He did it more than what i can think of, wow!!! Totally blown away seriously, speachless...

So small message yet so powerfull

2009-09-16T09:51:00.000-07:00

As i'm working now, so happen to be "Puasa Month" for the muslims, everytime on my way back is during "Buka Puasa" time. For me, I'm tired of the whole day's work and all i wanted is go back as early as possible. So somehow this one day, i was grumpy to go back as soon as possible, as usual at buka puasa time. As i was waking along Chow Kit (this is where the incident happen), beside a restaurant or mamak, sat an old man who looks like a begger, having his meal for buka puasa. He was so happy to eat his meal and there i was, feeling very grumpy to go home.

This incident show me how we should be thankful for what we have with us. As i started my working life, things change and couldn't be the same again, but i know God is faithfull. So as human, we should be thankfull that we are alive because God own everything that we have.

So my advice to you is to appreciate the thing you have even when you dont like it right now.

P/S: the begger is still there beside the TAR restaurant in Chow Kit until now...

Pain!!!

2009-09-14T06:22:00.000-07:00

I'm in pain right now!!! I thought it was a normal ulser in my mouth, but i was so wrong!!! I'm starting to have wisdom tooth in my mouth!!! Why now???

Been Busy Lately...

2009-09-06T05:52:00.001-07:00

As most of you would know by now that I quit every position in church because of my work issue. But i love my work because there is so many things that i can learn from it. I thought i knew it all but i was totally wrong man!!! I like the busyness and the stress level that comes with it, rather than sitting at home doing nothing right??

So I'm sorry if i dont post as much as i could do, because when I'm at home, mostly I'll just sleep... I still will be free on public holidays if you want to go out with me, just let me know...

About my car, I'm trying very hard to take picture of my car, but everytime i want to take a picture, my camera is with my sister, ish!!! There is no one gonna take me and my car together anyway... If I'm free, than I'll do it, just dont know when...

till next time...

Big price to pay

2009-08-21T20:54:00.000-07:00

Firstly, I got a job!!! Yes, after 3 month of being under stress trying to find a job, kena scolding from my parents some more. It's not that I'm not doing anything also, but like a young person will say, "it's because of parents". But cut the story short, I wont be continue-ing to study for now unless a scholarship comes in for me.

As i will be working, a lot of thing will i leave behind as to adjust with my working life. For example, I'll be working on the weekends so I wont be going to church as a result. Ya, i guess they have to work without me being there with them anymore. All the how to's and placing of the stuff i leave it to the leaders to handle. Ya, I'll be a bit sad as i leave because we use to grow up playing music together, we go through stuff together and recently we went sound recording together. Those are memories and I will keep with me.

I will not be in the youth department of the church too. Being the worship director, many thing did i plan out to do for the next 1 year or so in the second floor of the church as well in the sanctuary, so someone have to take it back up where i leave it behind.

So my time of work is not certain yet, meantime I will not be going for any church activities. But if my condition allows, I'll still be around at times.

And the last thing is that, hopefully as i work, I'll be getting my first car!!!!

A proton Satria, an old one because the new one sucks!!

I think more responsibility are coming my way, it's about time...

Double the busy-ness!!!

2009-08-18T08:32:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I wrote something in my blog. But here am I again, try to write something up. Yes, I believe things happen for reason, and i want to be a part of resulting the reason, get what i mean?? Nevermind, i dont understand too...

For those who is still asking, yes I'm still being a bum at home without a permenent job. Dont worry, I'm searching for one. (God bless me with the job that i like, really hoping for a miracle!!!)

Being busy with sound recording for a while but enjoyed it. just check this out.

I somehow imagine what my life will be if I'm doing a full album of myself. I think it would take month of hard work to finish it.

Now that the chinese service musician are gone in the church, it's time for me to take that challange to land a hand into helping them for their worship. I know a lot of people been asking whether i can take it, i say to you that "until I start working, I would stay and play for every week, at least be there for their service". So basically, I wont be going out with the youth for saturday night dinner.

Days I'll be playing for church

Monday- no

Tuesday- no

Wednesday- English prayer meeting, Chinese service practice

Thursday- no

Friday- cell group (alternative guitarist)

Saturday- English service Practice, youth service (playing and worship leading sometimes), chinese service

Sunday- English service, meeting after that

Above not included my part time teaching tuition and not included IF I'm working. If i start working, then I have to make changes to what I'm carrying on my shoulders.

Wow, calebraj, you're really taking a lot of things on yourself. Make sure you rest well.

Information about the race I am

2009-08-04T21:26:00.000-07:00

I found this on Facebook, i didn't know my history also, so for those who wanna know what my race means and it's origin (including myself),

just read through this...(it's a bit long)

गोरखा

जय नेपाल!!!

AYO GORKHALI!!! (Here come the Gorkhas!!!)

Bravest of the Brave.....

Normally written as Gorkha in Nepal, also the correct way to pronounce it.

This group was formed to bring awareness about who the Gurkhas are and the plight of our people in the UK, Nepal and India.

Gorkhas are not just foot soldiers for the British Army, we are a proud people with a unique and rich history. We have our own Heroes, Kings, Queens, Knights, we have a history that influenced the destiny of the Indian Subcontinent and the Chinese Empire as well as the British Empire.

We are a small country but we are unconquerable because from the simple peasent tilling the fields in Nepal to the proud Knights of the Gorkha dynasty, we are the disciples of the great Warrior Saint of Guru Gorakhnath, we are the GORKHAS!

Field Marshal Manekshaw once said
"If a man says he is not afraid of dying, he is either lying or he is a Gorkha"

The History portion of this site was taken from:
Graduate Thesis: Rajputs, the Way of Sacrifice. Author: Dr. Sumerendra Vir Singh Chauhan. University of Toronto. Copyright.

Gurkha, also spelled as Gorkha, are people from Nepal who take their name from the eighth century Hindu warrior-saint Guru Gorakhnath. His disciple Bappa Rawal, born Prince Kalbhoj/Prince Shailadhish, founded the house of Mewar. Later descendants of Bappa Rawal moved further east to found the house of Gorkha, which in turn founded the Kingdom of Nepal. Gurkhas are best known for their history of bravery and strength in the British Army's Brigade of Gurkhas and the Indian Army's Gorkha regiments. Gorkha is one of the 75 districts of modern Nepal.

The Gurkhas were designated by the British as a Martial Race. Martial Race is a designation created by officials of British India to describe "races" (peoples) that were thought to be naturally warlike and aggressive in battle, and to possess qualities like courage, loyalty, self sufficiency, physical strength, resilience, orderliness, hard working, fighting tenacity and military strategy. The British recruited heavily from these Martial Races for service in the colonial army.

Gurkhas claim descent from the Hindu Rajputs and Brahmins of Northern India, who entered modern Nepal from the west. Guru Gorkhanath had a Rajput Prince-disciple, the legendary Bappa Rawal, born Prince Kalbhoj, founder of the house of Mewar, who became the first Gurkha and is said to be the ancestor of the present Royal family of Nepal.

The legend states that Bappa Rawal was a teenager in hiding, when he came upon the warrior saint while on a hunting expedition with friends in the jungles of Rajasthan. Bappa Rawal chose to stay behind, and care for the warrior saint, who was in deep meditation. When Guru Gorkhanath awoke, he was pleased with the devotion of Bappa Rawal. The Guru gave him the Kukri knife, the famous curved dagger of the present day Gurkhas. The legend continues that he told Bappa that he and his people would henceforth be called Gurkhas, the disciples of the Guru Gorkhanath, and their bravery would become world famous. He then instructed Bappa Rawal, and his Gorkhas to stop the advance of the Muslims, who were invading Afghanistan (which at that time was a Hindu/Buddhist nation). Bappa Rawal took his Gurkhas and liberated Afghanistan - originally named Gandhar, from which the present day Kandahar derives its name. He and his Gorkhas stopped the initial Islamic advance of the 8th century in the Indian subcontinent for the time being.

There are legends that Bappa Rawal (Kalbhoj) went further conquering Iran and Iraq before he retired as an ascetic at the feet of Mt. Meru, having conquered all invaders and enemies of his faith.

It is a misconception that the Gurkhas took their name from the Gorkha region of Nepal. The region was given its name after the Gurkhas had established their control of these areas. In the early 1500s some of Bappa Rawal's descendants went further east, and conquered a small state in present-day Nepal, which they named Gorkha in honour of their patron saint.

By 1769, through the leadership of Sri Panch (5) Maharaj Dhiraj Prithvi Narayan Shahdev (1769-1775), the Gorkha dynasty had taken over the area of modern Nepal. They made Hinduism the state religion, although with distinct Rajput warrior and Gorkhanath influences. Thus the modern Nepal as we know it today was created as one nation, one kingdom.

A Gurkha can be of any caste, creed or race (since there are racial variations in Nepal) but only a Hindu (that includes Nepalese Buddhists) can be a Gurkha, since it is de rigueur that one believes in the teachings of Guru Gorkhanath and the Warrior code of the Ancient Hindus. Without these teachings one cannot develop the mindset, spirit, essence and soul of a Gurkha.

([Recent addition] Please note that although Hinduism is a general term encompassing a wide variety of faiths in the sub-continent, both Vedic and non-Vedic, it is worth mentioning that the Bon religion, an animistic, shamanistic faith is also practised by certain ethnic tribes that have also become encompassed and brought into the circle of the Gorkhas and thus should also be noted as being part of the Gorkhali culture.)

In the Gurkha War (1814–1816) they waged war against the British East India Company army. The British were impressed by the Gurkha soldiers and after reaching a stalemate with the Gurkhas and making Nepal a protectorate they were granted the right to hire them as mercenaries organised in Gurkha regiments in the East India Company army with the permission of then prime minister, Shree Teen (3) Maharaja (Maharana) Jung Bahadur Rana, the first Rana Prime-minister who initiated a Rana oligarchic rule in Nepal. Originally Jung Bahadur and his brother Ranodip Singh brought a lot of upliftment and modernisation to Nepalese society, the abolishment of slavery, upliftment of the untouchable class, public access to education etc. but these dreams were short lived when in the coup d'etat of 1885 the nephews of Jung Bahadur and Ranodip Singh (the Shumsher family or Satra (17) Family, later to be known as S.J.B. or Shumsher J.B.) murdered Ranodip Singh and the sons of Jung Bahadur and took control of Nepal bringing one of the darkest periods of Nepalese history (104 years of dictatorial rule). This Shumsher Rana rule is regarded as one of the reasons of Nepal lagging behind in modern development and a dark age of Nepalese History. The children of Jung Bahadur and Ranodip Singh mainly live outside of Kathmandu, in Nepal and mainly in India after escaping the coup d'etat of 1885. Relations among family members have now normalized.

The Gurkhas from reputed families refused to enter as soldiers and were instead given positions as officers in the British-Indian armed forces. The common peasant/farmer/village Gurkhas entered as soldiers. One Gurkha, the Great Great Grandson of Sri Teen Maharaja Jung Bahadur, was entered as officers, (retired) General Narendra Bahadur Singh (my cousin), Gorkha Rifles, rose to become aide-de-camp (A.D.C.) to Lord Mountbatten, the last Viceroy of India, when he was only a young Captain in the British Indian Army. After the British left India Gorkhalis continued seeking employment in British and Indian forces, as officers and soldiers, as well as maintaining the sovereignty of their nation.

The History portion of this site was taken from:
Source: Graduate Thesis: Rajputs, the Way of Sacrifice. Author: Dr. Sumerendra Vir Singh Chauhan. University of Toronto.

Under international law present-day British Gurkhas are not treated as mercenaries but are fully integrated soldiers of the British Army, operate in formed units of the Brigade of Gurkhas, and abide by the rules and regulations under which all British soldiers serve. Similar rules apply for Gurkhas serving in the Indian Army.

“As I write these last words, my thoughts return to you who were my comrades, the stubborn and indomitable peasants of Nepal. Once more I hear the laughter with which you greeted every hardship. Once more I see you in your bivouacs or about your fires, on forced march or in the trenches, now shivering with wet and cold, now scorched by a pitiless and burning sun. Uncomplaining you endure hunger and thirst and wounds; and at the last your unwavering lines disappear into the smoke and wrath of battle. Bravest of the brave, most generous of the generous, never had country more faithful friends than you".

-Professor Sir Ralph Turner, MC, who served with the 3rd Queen Alexandra's Own Gurkha Rifles in the First World War

The Gurkha Welfare Trust writes About the Gurkhas:

"Nepal is a landlocked country in the Himalayas. Its only natural resource is its scenery, its significant export is its fighting men. The men we call the Gurkhas."

"For over 180 years the Gurkhas have helped to fight Britain's wars and keep the peace. They have won 13 Victoria Crosses and served in most of the major conflicts of the 20th Century."

"If there was a minute's silence for every Gurkha casualty from World War 2 alone, we would have to keep quiet for two weeks."

The Victoria Cross is the highest and most prestigious award for gallantry in the face of the enemy that can be awarded to British and Commonwealth forces.

The Part where i got my car driving license

2009-07-28T20:42:00.000-07:00

For those who didn't know, I've pass my driving test!! It's been long and busy times to plan for this but I did it finally after 4 years. I've been waiting for my parents approval to take car license all these while since i was 17 but was denied, although at that time i had the money for it. But recently, my parents saw the need to let me have my car license and the good thing was, it's fully paid by them. At the age of 21 only i had my license, but I'm glad that it happen right now than later.

All this while, my parents always train us up to earn our own money to get what we want, including for church camp and other things like shopping. I guess that's how my parents "system" works. So every time i go out, I had to take out my own money for my expenses. That's why I rarely go for holiday alone with my friends.

Hopefully I'll be working soon, to buy my own car!!! If not, my parents will nag non-stop at me. Found a few jobs that i like, but my father said don't go for it because it's in Cyberjaya. How lame is that???!!! Ask me to find work but don't let me to work. Ish, hopefully soon I'll get a good job or study la if my dad approve to let me study.

Song Healer

2009-07-22T20:46:00.000-07:00

As this song is being the "in song" for church right now, forget about the controversial part about it, but it's a very deep truth in a song. I personally love the first version of this song by Planet Shakers because of the attacks. Maybe it's because of Mike Webber of Planet Shakers la, one of those i look up to as a drummer.

Healer(lyrics)

You hold my every moment

You calm my raging seas

You walk with me through fire

And heal all my disease

I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer

I believe You are all I need

I believe You're my Portion

I believe You're more than enough for me

Jesus You're all I need

My Healer, You're my Healer

Nothing is impossible for You

You hold my world in Your hands

The story of the song "healer"

2009-07-22T20:27:00.000-07:00

The real story of a man faked his own Cancer. Although it's hard to take it in for me, it reminded be how we as christian should forgive those who had done wrong no matter how big is the mistake been made.

Jesus died once and for all, so that we might have life and life more abundantly.

Imagine Jesus already know 2000 years ago of this gonna happen and that this was a lie,

but yet He choose to die for Mike, even for you and me.

Wow, breathtaking... just speechless...

To be Unique or Normal?? You choose for yourself..

2009-07-20T07:20:00.000-07:00

I've been wondering about this for as long as i can remember. Been born in a family with a weird "race title" had not been easy thing for me during my school day, even now. Plus had to study in a Chinese school!!! All these had put me into a very complex character where i didn't know what i was basically, so freaking mixed up, LOL!! So basically my childhood life had been fun, a lot of searching for me to do on myself. Because every time i had to answer people because they are curious of what I am, I had to know what I am first right??

Adding to it, being a drummer all this years was my slot of hiding from the people, where i can be in my own world where no one will know me. I didn't expect it to put me more towards the front, where i am now. Nowadays, people know me as the "drummer", wherever i go there seams to be people knowing me to be a drummer. To tell the truth, I dislike people knowing me to have "this special gift" of playing drums. I just wants people to me as some ordinary guy, that's all. Because i had this fear that people will think I'm cocky kind. I am those who hates attention.

Ironically, I'm a mass comm graduate. Someone told me, being a mass comm graduate, I had to be famous if not I'm not successful. But to me, I'm just like others as well. I want to have a private life where no one knows me if possible. I don't know what I'm writing here.

I guess when we are well known, we wish we would have a life where no one know us and vice versa. I guess that is just life that we live in today. As for me, I just had to believe my future is in good hands and moving on the right track. I had no other choice but to believe. So I'm looking at the light to move towards it where I'll find my way out from this tunnel.

To all, you choose whether you wanna be "Normal" or be "unique". Your choice is in your own hands. As for me, I'm just weird which puts me in the unique category. haha.

Peace out till next time.

Still a fun experience

2009-07-13T20:09:00.000-07:00

Yes, I went to some sort which i think it's a "job interview" thingy for newscasting job in RTM. Besides, my parents push me into this anyway, especially my mom. Boy, i was wrong. No, my mom was so wrong!!! She was the one pushing me into this!!! It's OK mom, I still love you.

Many of you wondering, RTM?? Hiaz, now any big chances, I'll go for it because i think that's where i can start to reach my dream to reach the "producer's" post in the end. So like i said, i went for it and basically just wasting my time through it. I reach there at 10, got my turn at 3 in the evening, came home at 4. Imagine you're so nervous in the waiting process, feel like you're waiting to die only. It's so funny to look at so many people practice-ing their heart and soul into it, while I'm just basically walking around in the Hilton Hotel, yes it's Hilton!!!! Their toilet is just amazing!!! haha.

As when i was to go in, blood was pumping harder into my system. So i just inhale long breath and went in. Oh my, video camera everywhere, they even have a clip mic on my shirt to start with. It's kind of scary as you can watch the live video screen of yourself as you talk. I'm not even crazy about looking at the mirror of myself and now looking at my own video?? As i was thinking, I'm a Mass Comm graduate, should I be scared of this?? The fact was I am, i didn't know why.

So yes, I was reading in BM which at the half way i was reading it, the judges stoped my and said i better try the English side. As usual, the judges was interested in my race issue, haiz, basically everyone I newly met will ask the same thing. Because they are big profile and i don't want to look rude, I answer them of their question. At least i looked interesting to them.

So after that, i went to the English side for an interview. As you have known me, I'm bad in remembering people's name. And oh my, they ask me to name some of RTM's newscastor's name. I only remembered one so it's my bad to the fact that the guy interviewed me i forgot his name, sorry dude. But there was a lot of question ask in the English side of the room. Maybe they shortlisted me for English news, I dont know...

Was it a waste of time?? I dont think so, but at least i had the experience of a newscaster's life, just a bit.

New Things to come

2009-07-12T07:23:00.000-07:00

After finishing my studies, it's time again to choose what is my next step in my life. And to tell the truth, I'n not sure of what to do next. Somehow i know where I'll end up, but i dont really know the journey there. Get me?? No worries, sometimes i dont too and that's just life.

For those who has or had been wondering, no I'm not working yet, but thing are starting to fall into their places. So hopefully work will start soon.

Yes, I've been sitting at home trying to think on my next step to take. But to tell the truth, I'm just clueless!!! Only thing i cling on to is God's promises in the Bible. I'm just waiting for God to speak to me for my next move in my life. So in the waiting timeframe (even now), my parents got mad and ask me to find work, which i did, just that i didn't find things that i love to do. To the point where they scolded me upside down especially my dad. My mom knows the whole story but not my dad. So i was a bit disapointed, but cant really blame him for not knowing the whole situation so let him la.

After that incident, I've been deeply thinking until I was stress out. One night, I just broke down and cried myself while praying. I just let God take control.

Now, God really just show Himself strong because few offer had came in. I thought i would not be doing what I've studied but it has to be God who comes and open ways for me. Wow, He really does go before us.

He really did blow my mind of the thing He can do!!! I didn't by any chance thought of the offer coming like never before. Hopefully good things are coming my way. It's true the phrase

"every good thing comes to those who believe in Him". Just speachless...

Sister's not around!!! Yes!!!

2009-07-10T22:13:00.000-07:00

Like i said, my sister's will be in JB this weekend,

so I'm free from the noise and no one to disturb the TV this weekend, haha. Nice!!!

Next time go longer outing ya...

Father's Day Message from me

2009-07-01T09:29:00.000-07:00

For all the fathers, wishing you all happy father's day!!! Coming from a son, i know it's not easy being a dad, so just to tell you guys that you're doing great, keep it up!!! Everything that you've said is gonna be faced by us, the coming generation. So do keep us in the back of your mind.

Yes, i wrote and perform a special song to all the fathers in church on father's day. I was so secretive before that paticular day because i want it to be a surprise. My parents didnt even know about it. How cool is that??!!! I think the whole church was a bit of surprise when i came up on stage, because I'm always known as the drummer, not the guitarist.

Now that the event is over, I'm not affraid to admit i had few tears while singing this song that i wrote, just a few, not many!! I dont even dare to look at my dad while performing because I'm affraid that I'll cry when i look at him. Yes, my biggest fear is crying on stage, seriously!!! I'm a cry baby if you're wondering.

So there was me, performing alone which I'm not use to but it's certainly not my first and not my last!!!

There was me, with my sister's new guitar.

I know my wordrobe a bit gila, but can la.

For those wanna watch my video of my performance, just click the video bar below.

Thanks Joash for capturing the video!!!!

My renewed Identity Card

2009-06-25T08:43:00.001-07:00

For those who havent see my new IC, here is how it looks. Yes, i know my old IC looks like some criminal. It's because i just woke up from my sleep, dont blame me because it's so freaking long to wait and i ter-sleep in my dad's car.

Yes, the criminal face is now gone!!!!

Replace with the new hair cut look. This time, i went with my whole family and by the grace of God, everything was completed in an hour,

just have to wait for their call after they finish to the completed product.

That smile I'm blaming my younger sister becuase she came disturbing me while i was taking this picture. Yes, i know your cry. Sisters right??!!! haha.

P/S: Michelle, there is my IC photo that you want to see so much!!!

At least better looking than before, hehe.

For those who had not change you IC between the age 18 and above. you have time till before you're 24 to change it, if not you're gonna be fined for it

My sister's guitar

2009-06-22T19:56:00.000-07:00

Fo those who still dont know, my sister (the second of my parents) recently bought a full solid guitar. For a full solid guitar, that's the best quality of the sound you can get for a guitar. And yes, being the richest sister that i have, she bought it fully paid by herself.

So this give her the chance to "lock" her guitar bag to not let me play. Ish!!! If only I own it!! Let her la, it's hers anyway. But hopefully i'll get to play it once in a while...

My dad trying it at home.

The guitar is a Solid Engelmann Spruce top

with solid Mahagany back and side. Sweet!!!!

This is what the guitar look like

The back, with all the wood grove

Gold tuning head with Pearloid tuners

nice tuners by the way, i heard it cost a lot just for one...

It's abalone inlays for the binding. just Sh#t nice!!!

My sister even had a name for the guitar, she named it "LEX" LOL...

well, let her la, it's hers anyway. Wait until i get mine!!!! Ish!!!!

Wedding at St. James

2009-06-22T08:03:00.001-07:00

To Jacob and Jessnie, congratulations!!! Yes, it was my first time going to St. James Church, with no offence that church is sort of full with Indians. But at the wedding, there was not much Indians, the only weird people there was myself, the lain lain group of people. Haha!!!

The amount of people that came for the wedding.

Just look at how high is the hall!!!!

Coming back, i have to say the church is not like what I imagine before, i mean this look like some old fashion church setting. And because of the high ceiling, they cant afford to have an acoustic drum because it might create too much echo and reverb on the hall. But i have to say the place they put the musical instrument is not up to par.

They should have done better, or can call me for free consultation.

But their mixer and sound system was darm good in positioning. Praise them for that. And I played with their electronic drumset. Although the price for it is about RM5k, it still sounded "plastic" to me, i rather have the real thing, haha.

Taking a break now?? Maybe not this time.

2009-06-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

For all those who dont know, i requested to take a break in playing the drums in church. Yes, i know that you all will say, who else gonna play the drums right?? Erm... I dont know. For what i know I've been playing non-stop for the past 5 years or so, without any break every week. Even plays for wednesday prayer meeting, ya very tiring wei.

One day, i realise that I dont have much joy in playing the drums anymore. I realise that it's been like a duty to play for every sunday. It feel like I've nothing to offer anymore, that's how dry I am. To those who dont know, I'm the kind where I like to worship being as a normal congregation, with nothing to worry and worship.

For now, I'm basically doing everything in church. Everything that people find difficultly in, they will ask me for help. Plus nowadays, I feel that my drumming is not improving but going backwards. So my reason for my break is to recieve input so that when i serve, I'm able to project my output as i play. I wanna be the drummer that shakes the enemy ground back again, yes, that's what i want back!!

So whoever want to pick up drums, please let me know. I cant be all the while standing alone...

P/S: Uncle mike said not this time to my request, but he said maybe next time when I have my protege. So see how la, hopefully I have one.

Am I losing my touch??

2009-06-09T21:02:00.000-07:00

Recently, I've been busy with so many things that i didn't know why i gave a hand in helping. To me, I wanna lend my hand because I believe that I can make that different in the coming result. What i didn't realise, Is that I'm over-stressing myself till i feel like taking a break in all things. I feel like I'm losing my touch in many areas in my life. For example, worship leading seams to be such a passionate thing for me to do in church. Now, it's like a struggle and i cant seam to be focus in it anymore. Why?? Am i losing my touch in this? Maybe I'm just too tired at times. Many times my spirit feel so dry which used to be vibrant to serve the church. As a result, I feel that even my thinking is very different nowadays. I'm not like i use to think and do. Maybe it's just me growing up. I dont know, i need time to figure it out...

Ish!!! I hate it when this happen....

Memories for college life in TARC

2009-06-08T20:07:00.000-07:00

Jusr by looking at this picture bring back such a memory with all the students and the lecturers. Gosh i miss the moments!!! But life have to go on right? To all that didn't know, I wont be continue-ing in TARC because i feel myself is being restricted to follow the "not so good" system. Yes, through the 2 years I'm there, i made a lot of friends until where I'm scared of seeing people in the college compound because of my short term memory loss. I cant seams to remember people's face until they will come and say Hi to me. Like the picture above, I cant seams to remember everyone's name. MALUNYA!!!!

One of the reason why I'm leaving TARC is because i had it with the life there. Let me explain...

Cliche with the sound, I'm leaving TARC because I want a new start where people dont even know my name. Because I'm involve in most of the college events, people just get to know me and vice versa. Not that i dont like people, dont get me wrong, i like meeting new people, just that i wanna go some place that people dont know anything about me and live a normal life.

Recently when i go back to college to attent the Advance Diploma class, while walking in the collge compound, i feel so restless. It's like the college has been an unknown ground for me, i feel so lost being in the college. How can this happen?? I just left the college One month before that and I dont know the college anymore?? Maybe it's my short term memory loss thing. I struggle while walking near the canteen area with myself towards my lecture hall. Maybe it's just like what i wanted, to be out of the college for life??

So to those who is continue-ing, I personally wish you the best of luck, although i dont believe in them but you do so do the best you can and enjoy. As for me, I'm still not sure whether I wanna continue my degree in UCSI. So i'm searching for my direction before my intake in september.

For all the E4 classmate and all DBC's student, I'll miss you all for the crazy thing we did during our diploma times and all the jokes we make of each other, i really really gonna miss it...

Even to the lecturers, if in case you see this post, just wanna say a big thank you for being a part of my life that shapped me into what i am today. Thank You for giving your best to me and guided me. A million thanks to you guys...

Above All - a very nice old and meaningfull song

2009-05-30T02:04:00.000-07:00

A very old and nice song, in terms of lyric and melody line. This clip made me stop and ponder for a moment of how God came down and made a way to himself. He took our shame and sin and take it upon Himself. Wow, if only I can thank You enough...

This video is worth watching, seriously!!!!

OMG, i didn't know!!!!!

2009-05-29T21:47:00.000-07:00

OMG, i really didnt know this. Remember "So you think you can dance Malaysia Season 2"?? Yes, CC won the competition and the funny thing is that i dont even know she is from my church?? How dumb is that? I was the one that should know all these thing because i am the one that knows everything, ISH!!!! Anyway congrats to her as she won. I know this is old news but this makes me proud of people like this, not of their fame but their effort. Go on CC!!!!

24th event day

2009-05-28T07:57:00.000-07:00

Yes, finally it's over. Event of full of Adrenalin rush, maybe just for me. A lot can be said at the event, many things that can be proud of and many are also not that worth to say. But overall, it's a great event all together. I'm really glad to see all the effort paid off in such a good way. Thanks for those who innitiate this idea, and for all those who was involve with this, even to the simpliest job of being an usher on that day, i would like to say a big thank you for doing your job. Because of all simple jobs join together as a whole, it would be something big and because of that, everything went smoothly.This is actually the first event the church decided to do this massive event. Even the people of our own church in Seremban and Senawang came down just for this, wow how touching is that?? Not forgeting the people from Alam Jaya, Cheras and the main building in Jalan Ipoh was in this together.

Doesn't this look like a church setting??

Pastor, let's buy this conference hall and make it ours!!!!

The people that came for this event, thanks everyone for coming.

Sound system of the day, although some have to say it's not the best sound, it's because of the shape of the hall becuase it has no carpet, how lame is that!!!!

And yes, i was playing the drums for that day, just look at my setting for it. Mind you that i love the mics that was put on for this. Altogether 7 mics for the drums only!!! How cool is that??!!!

Mind you that I'm a left handed, so everything is the other way around ya...

Left view of my drums, look at my side snare,

it's beautiful and different from others!!!

Right side view, nice??

And yes, i was so into my playing until i didn't realise that my snare drum's skin tore itself.

Poor thing!!! But it is still serving me as it still can be played on it, soon i will change the skin for a better sound if i have money to do it...

Say bye bye to my long hair!!!!

2009-05-22T21:42:00.000-07:00

For those wants to see how long is my hair before I'm cutting it off, here is my picture of my hair recently. Yes, it has serve me well because when people look at me, the first thing they realise is my hair, so after this coming Saturday, it will be gone!!!! ALL!!! Not technically, but shorter, much shorter!!!! So the only picture of my long hair ever in my life. Gonna miss you my long hair!!! See you soon if possible...

Sorry, random picture, haha!!!

P/S: For those who ask me to cut fringe,

one thing i wanna say to you...

NEVER!!!!!